Why Georgia?

“I am driving up 85 in the
Kind of morning that lasts all afternoon
Just stuck inside the gloom

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Four more exits to my apartment but
I am tempted to keep the car in drive
And leave it all behind

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Cause I wonder sometimes
About the outcome
Of a still verdictless life

Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why, why Georgia, why?

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I rent a room and I fill the spaces with
Wood in places to make it feel like home
But all I feel’s alone
It might be a quarter life crisis
Or just the stirring in my soul

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Either way, I wonder sometimes
About the outcome
Of a still verdictless life

Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why, why Georgia, why?

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So what, so I’ve got a smile on me
But it’s hiding the quiet superstitions in my head
Don’t believe me
Don’t believe me
When I say I’ve got it down

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Everybody is just a stranger but
That’s the danger in going my own way
I guess it’s the price I have to pay
Still “Everything happens for a reason”
Is no reason not to ask myself

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If your’re living it right
Are you living it right?
Are you living it right?
Why, tell me why
Why, why Georgia why?”

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“Why Georgia”, John Mayer, Room for Squares

I vividly remember when Room for Squares came out. As soon as I discovered this song, it played on repeat in my car, in my home and in my head for close to three years. I was 24, 25 & 26 and the lyrics resonated with me deeply. The fact that I lived in Atlanta, drove up I-85 often and felt stuck (quarter-life crisis?) were, I’m sure, contributing factors to why I identified so closely with this song. I would belt out the bridge and chorus: “I wonder sometimes about the outcome of a still verdictless life. Am I living it right? Am I living it right?”

“Why Georgia” still holds such a place in my heart and brings me back to those worrying days of asking myself if I was living it right. But it makes me smile, because God has done so much in my life since then. He’s given me such a peace and confidence (in addition to changing my circumstances and giving me the courage to step out and take some much-needed risks!)… I do still find myself wondering about the outcome of my life. However, while I may never know my future, I do know the One who does. And so my life is not verdictless. Why did that never occur to me all those years that I was belting out those lyrics?

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Today I’m continuing to slowly count my way toward the more than thousands of gifts that God has so abundantly showered upon me:

29. Peace that passes all understanding.
30. Confidence that my life isn’t verdictless.
31. Courage to step out and take risks when necessary and make changes to better my circumstances.
32. Lyrics that reach into my soul and express the things that I just can’t.
33. A faithful, steadfast Father who loves me abundantly.
34. Renewed vision for my life–one that rests on HIS vision for me.
35. A husband who comes alongside me and encourages me to see myself the way he does and the way God does.
36. A husband who speaks my love language–intentionally.
37. Catch-up days.
38. Warm soup.
39. A puppy who loves me unconditionally.
40. Hope.
41. Cloudy days.
42. Crock pot meals.
43. That I never have to use the “right words” when I speak to God; He takes me just as I am and I’ll never be misunderstood.
44. That God cares. About everything.

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